how do I breathe, when you're not with me?
cause you made it harder to breathe.

The time now is not pass 12am YET, so it's still my birthday :D
At school today was nice, got greeted by almost everyone I know and not know. Received like a hell lots of hugs for the very first time (more like choking me to death). Oh and I wanna thank Zanna & QinYi for their awesome prez! Every one just made my day, how can I not be happy when people greets you with a HUGE SMILE on their face?

Some one's avoiding me badly like as if he doesn't even know me already! He now only talks to me online and none from reality D: He said he 's like scared of me? I call it, Tiennerphobia! LOL cheesey much. A lot has forgotten my birthday and some even thought it was tomorrow ): quite sad lor, Wei Jun and Lao Mao! -.- How was school? So far so good! Though, the class can be really lame and quiet at times but I enjoy having drastic changes in me loife ;) But I can totally bet on that, fun, never stands on my side for long.

And today at English class, I accidentally said something so so wrong LIKE WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU wrong ._. It's hard to explain but, well, at least I brighten up the whole class and had a great laugh about it. Oh how awesome, everyone's talking about it, PFT! I made a fool out of my self in front of the new student! Nooooo.. this cannot be happening because, I have this "bad" first impression for the first day he reached school. Oh my Buddha! :O

Lastly, Happy 14th Birthday Ngu Hui Tien!
Stop being a hard headed girl and try to listen more please.

I just is SO SO mad at you! Why can't you understand?! Are parents always like that? PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY YES, THEY ARE ALWAYS LIKE THAT! You just really had to make my day worst, huh? Does making my life miserable or sad makes you feel good? WTF like WTF! Damnit I'm so mad right now. This isn't what you called being "caring" lah ok? Suck ball :) I am not going to say, oh fcuk you because I do not hell wanna fcuk you!

And thinking positive makes it wayyy better than being emo for the whole day. If I did gotten emo for the rest of the day then I'm the one who's making it worst isn't it? Thats why, I shall blog and type whatever I feel like typing craps about (retard .|.). And omg, the feeling when I was with them on the court, playing with them, it's like, I'm such a loser.. A BIG ONE. Why can't I ever improve? WHY OH WHY? :'( Crying out about all these will make me feel better and.. I.. I.. just don't think I can make it to the team. Fcuking obvious I suck so bad! I'll drag the whole team down, but I know, I won't get chosen so, no worries for me. This year, I'll be sitting at the bench cheering for you guys.. again. By maintaining a happy mood, avoid thinking bout negative stuff Tien! JUST STOP THINKING. On the bright side, I'll know that I've tried my best and gave it all, I still can't make it, and I'm helping the team to win :) by not playing.

Happy people ain't always happy yknow? All those emo emo people will only say "they always very happy one hor, never sad one." Well, fyi emo people, when "happy people" gets emotional, WE'LL EFFIN win you in being emo. We tried so hard to be happy and let others feel better and know that, people still can be happy even when you have nothing expensive or luxurious. You may think "aiya, you where will have any sad problems? You everyday so happy ah, like me meh, everyday sad this sad that, haisss (that what my friends always tell me -.-)." WRONG again boobs. Once again, being emo is pwnage cheeseball, agree not? I bet ya'll emo people out there is being envy. You guys can also wad. Problem is.. YA AIN'T THINKIN' OUTSIDE the box.

Living in your own world can be nice but, try socializing more. Random Fact: Do you know that Banana has a kind of chemical/whatever that can actually make you feel happier? I want this very badly, and I know it myself too :'( KARMA PLEASE help me. Though, I never did anything nice or holly (sp?). WHATEVER LAH! I know I won't get in anyways (AND QINYI, STOP ASKING ME TO BELIEVE! It doesn't work on me tee dot tee).

p/s: Pardon me for grammar errors and my speaking. Is mad, so don't think I care ^^!

I came across this website when I was looking up something on Google. I found this little adorable black kid who suprisingly were born with blue eyes! His parents are both black, and no, they're not mixed blood with some other race, they're just a family of typical African American like Barack Obama is.

Have A Great School Year Guys!

me need a new layout, I want something different,

different like not white as I've been using white

for ages now and it's getting boring somemore so bright x.x

.lavlavlav i vantz ya lav.

Do you believe in love ever after?
因为，我相信。。

Cheong Chea Chea & Andrew Jieh

Congrats to the newly weds! (my cousin on the left and her now so called husband on the right) so happy for her la :p I didn't get to attend her wedding because it was like a very last minute thing, plus we're in Brunei and the wedding is held at KL. As usual, I never really get to go back for most of the things happening like, the other time where my uncle got married, and then CNY, then now this. But, I do get to go back if it was at my dad's side cause we only have to travel by car to get there.

You know, this new cousin in law of mine really somehow looks like 潘裕文 one lor. I'm not kidding! I even made this to prove..

HAHAHA alike not? They even have the same nose! Just prolly if my cousin in law had the same hair as 潘裕文 then I assure you they'll look like twins. This is plain creepy.. Wonder if he can sing lol. Untung lah Chea :p

In 1 more day, school will finally be reopened again ): Nevertheless, I shall be prepared and armed! (for what?) this, is going to be cheeseball fo'shure. Please no Shanthi! -.- Cannot bear with that whomen anymore. There's like bread in her mooth when she tried taking/yelling. Especially when she's trying to threaten us.

Oh and I wanted to add another New Year resolution specially for my brother Anna Ngu :p That is..

- Slap, mock, insult, hit, threaten him every time :DDD

Awesome ayy? *wiggle eyebrows*

A very last picture for today and my very personal fav ;)

Just an short update before I can't blog about this :p Officially got my braces on for good today! Seems like it wasn't like what I checked in the internet. You can see most of the comments about braces are something like "WTF IT HURT SOOOO DAMN MUCH !@#$%^&" "it fcking hurts like a 13itch!" "never go get braces! it really hurtsss!!!!". For now, it feels alrightie ok ok kind of discomfort-ness but nevermind.. I shall screw Dr.S if my teeths isn't straight after 16 more appointments!

Dr.S managed to put colours on my braces for the first time and I chose baby pink instead of blue because I thought having pink is very cute. Though, its not that visible unless your eyes are like right infront of my teeths.

Yesterday's training wasn't as bad as I thought it would turned out. Sweat alot, quite many boys showed up for the very very first time. I left everyone 1hr earlier :P under reasonable reasons ok? Not sure why I was feeling mad yesterday. I think its because of my shoe -.- cause like, my sock wasn't high enough so the shoe part where my ankle is, yes that part, (wtf i don't know how to explain bah) that part of the shoe was rubbing at the back of my ankle and now got this bubble thing there and its so itchy and at the same time, sorta pain?

When I was already in the car, on the way back home, then started with the Kung Fu Panda song! By that time, I was least mad liao :p Gay lah I know but.. it makes people feel corny horny and follows by happy.

What are you guys planning for tonight? Lonely ah me tonight. No party, no celebration, no dinner, no countdown, whatever also don't have ._.

About New Year's resolutions..

- Study better and get awesome grades.
- Must get to homework after I get home from school.
- Serious about studies and not fool around.
- Prove to my dad wrong.
- Score at least 70 for Maths everytime.
- Score at least 75 for all the other subs.
- Have to stop complaining about life. (since karma gets it anyways)
- Learn to appreciate what I have now.
- To not talk back when my parents are trying to give me a "lecture". (this is gonna be hard)

Thats probably it! More to come for it but the mains are all there :) More actions, less bull shitting.

Last but not least..

Happy New Year!
in advanced ;)

Its time to blog like Qin Yi! uh, whatever Hui Tien. Ok, so I think I hurt-ted (wtf is that?) him really bad. Yes, he was saying something like "when you said something like that, it kills me inside". He made me felt bad about my self. I just realized, I never did accepted anyone that ever chased me just because I never gave them a chance to prove it? Is it really time for me to have one? I mean like I'm only 14 next year. Did anyone of you guys knew, for my whole life, there's only this dude whom was actually attached to me. It was a short one and a memorable one. I thank you, YS, even you fckin moved the Canada after we broke up for only a month, you were still the sweetest :) Though, none of my friends knew you existed or seen you before. I know can liao lah actually *winks*. Oh and by the way, my weight dropped! AH YAY YAY!

Just for a few more days, school is once again reopened for us to study, get scolded, get complained, have fun, got bored, forget to pass up homeworks/projects, be happy, get into a stupid fight, gained ilmu (i dont know whtheck is it in english) & etc etc. I am 111% not ready for school. I don't wanna disappoint my parents with my grades anymore, I really don't want to. What I really am waiting for is to see that smile on my parents face and say "you did good this time" and it can really make me smile or happy like crazy.

And yes, that feeling felt more heavenly than LOVE, because you know that your parents are actually proud. For me, that is. I wish, I will do good in every subject next year and more years to come. If I could just have 3 wishes...

black and white, isn't it obvious for every night?

SOPE, had all the 4 tooth pulled out like finally cause I didn't want to worry anything about it nymore lah and now i'm much more relieved because suprisingly it was tolerable enough for me. Or was it the injection part? You know, i have no idea how many needles went through my gums and i can feel like as if there's holes on it. Went to Dr.Sim first to have my major tooth decay filled and my cheeks were mostly on his tummy LOL, random fact btw. Next, had my lunch (part of my left side mouth, tongue, lip, nose?! was still numb so i can't feel my saliva/troat) and straight to Dr.Chua. It was time for me to have my tooths pulled out, fcuking scared can. At first my dad wanted me to choose if i really wanted to have everything out at once. I was literally crying already for food's sake! Ever since i was younger, i'm a sissy for dental clinics/dentists because obviously i knew my teeths wasn't under a good condition which made me more fear those sharp needles and drills :s Dr.Chua's pointy coat was poking me the whole time and i thought it was her boobs TEEHEE. Anyways, both of the dentists were being really gentle on the injections so everything was fine. The meds there for the fillings is all just weird. They have this Fuji2, Fuji7 & Fuji9 thing to fill my tooths. It all reminded me of Fuji Air :P me wants to go out and nobody wants to go out with me. Why you all hate me ha?! Loner much ._.